Day 87: what are your views upon sex before marriage

My view is that each person should do what they think is right for themselves, their relationship, and their happiness. Whether that be waiting to have sex after marriage, or having sex with one person and then marrying them, or having sex with whomever you want and not marrying any of them. All of those things are okay, you, as an individual, just have to decide which one is right for you. 

What is right for me is to be mentally, emotionally, and physically close with my boyfriend of two years. We are in love, and the intimacy that sex gives us is something that only keeps us closer. 

Don’t let anyone talk down to you for your decisions on what to do with your own body. Don’t feel inferior because you had sex and others disagree with it. Don’t feel inferior because you haven’t had sex and others think you should. Make the choices that are right for you. 

Day 82: would you break the law to save a loved one

Yes. 

Day 75: what is one of the best dreams you have ever had

Honestly, I don’t really know. I don’t really store dreams as “best ever” or things such as that, because most of the time they are just pain weird. I prefer dreams where my boyfriend and I get to be together though, since we don’t actually get to do that in real life very often. 

Day 67: how you found out about tumblr, and why you made one

Oh, man. I honestly do not remember how I heard about tumblr. To be honest, it was most likely through DLS (Dirty Little Secrets) on Gaia, which I was apart of for quite a while. A lot of people on there had one, so that’s probably how I decided to get one. That was in either the 8th or 9th grade. Now, here I am. Tumblr has become a place for me to blog about my annoying feelings that tend to creep up on me sometimes, as well as a place where I’ve met many wonderful individuals that I am just as lucky to have in my life as the actual present bodies of other friends. Tumblr is like my home away from home… even if I’m still at home. It’s a little escape. I don’t know how else to describe it. 

It’s always a fun night when your mother comes downstairs to figure out what’s going on because she can hear you crying from the upstairs. I told her everything though. She agrees with me. 
“Know your worth, Ashlyn. You are such a beautiful person and you shouldn’t accept less than you deserve.”
I’m taking my mother’s advice. I’m not accepting this relationship anymore. I’m not getting what I deserve.

Day 54: your definition of love

When you can be completely, 100%, without a doubt yourself around someone and know that you are not being judged, but rather enjoyed for who you are, and vise versa with the other person. When every activity, no matter how mundane, becomes special simply because you’re doing it with them. When an entire day doing nothing is not wasted simply because you were together. When, no matter what sort of shit hits the fan in your relationship, you hold on tight and stick with one another through it. Love is everything and nothing all at the same time and I have no other way of explaining it.

Love is what I feel when I am with him.